Chaos, Destructive Behavior, Impurity
Growing up, Vacation Bible School introduced me to Jesus and I started to believe in Him. However, I did not have a relationship with Christ. When I was in fourth grade, my mom was diagnosed with brain cancer. My dad was often at work. So at 10 years old, I was left to care for my sick mom and little sister.
My mom’s cancer continued to go in and out of remission. When I was 14, I met Allen and our relationship consisted primarily of drinking and partying. During this time, my mom was saved and always begged us to go to church with her. I traded the relationship I could have had with Christ for a life of partying and impurity.
Allen and I broke up when I was 16 and I entered into an abusive relationship. Drinking became a consistent part of my life. I was continuing to care for my mom. This included helping her learn to walk, talk, and eat again. When I was 17, my mom passed away. I was devastated and felt broken. After my mom’s death, I continued my dysfunctional relationship with my boyfriend. Finally, I left the relationship after calling the police as he tried to commit suicide. I sank to a low point. I spent every day drinking for an entire month.
Soon, Allen and I got back together and continued to party heavily until I became pregnant. Hudson’s birth changed me. When he was one, Allen agreed to go to church with me. He wanted to go to Lakeview but I did not. It was too familiar and I was certain people would judge me. However, I agreed to go just once.
The Sunday we visited Lakeview was Youth Sunday. I broke down in tears. I wished that I had had that growing up. I agreed to go back again the next Sunday. The sermon that week was on Luke 7:36-50- A Sinful Woman Forgiven.
“Therefore I tell you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven—for she loved much…” Luke 7:47
I could not help but see myself as that woman. If Jesus forgave her, he would forgive me. I wept and truly gave my life to Christ.
Free, Forgiven, Loved
I began serving in the nursery. After serving for a while, I was hired as the preschool director. I was working in a toxic environment at the time, so I was extremely grateful for this opportunity.
At 4 years old, Hudson was diagnosed with a rare skin cancer called DFSP. I was understandably crushed. I kept thinking my only child could be taken away. The morning after his diagnosis, I flipped open my Bible and opened to Psalms where I repetitively read to trust in God.
“When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.” Psalm 56:3
I was able to give Hudson and his future over to God. Fortunately, that sense of peace continued through all of Hudson’s cancer journey. He had surgery that was perfectly orchestrated by God. There was no denying that God’s hand was on this situation.
For years, Allen and I had been struggling with infertility. Seeing my friends get pregnant was such a bittersweet experience because I was mourning for the baby I deeply wanted. I found hope in Hannah. She continued to grieve because she was unable to conceive but she stayed faithful to the Lord.
“And in due time Hannah conceived and bore a son, and she called his name Samuel, for she said, “I have asked for him from the Lord.” 1 Samuel 1:20
Addilynn was an answer to prayers. I am grateful for the prayers and community provided by God through our church family.
When Lakeview started The Gift, I was thrilled to grow our community of young families. True authenticity became the norm and we found our community group. We have formed bonds with families that pray with us, mourn with us, and celebrate with us; but most importantly have a deep love for Christ.
I can now say I am proud of the struggles I have gone through because each one has brought me closer to Christ.
“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.” James 1:2-3
I am Kristin Roberts and I am the Church.